the day is getting nearer and nearer. i see hope, i see darkness. im praying for every hope i have. i dont wish to see her cry, dont wanna her to hug me tight crying. i dont want this to happen. god, please give us the hope. i really need that, really.

i hasn't been going out shopping or playing ever since june holidays have started. sigh. im waiting for saturday! it's been a long time since i last met my primary school friends. there's my school concert band on sunday too. weee. and im looking forward seeing shan and co. xP muaaa* i've missed everyone of you.

you must be wondering what im doing over these few weeks. studying, taking care of my sister in the day, doing household chores. yeah that's what ive been doing. i had just finished a storybook - someone likes you. it's about love, so amazing. but i dont want that kind of love =

im having some problems with friendship now. i cant see a reason why there's a problem in it. perhaps as what everyone says, girls are sensitive. four years of friendship, someone who you are close with, ends up lying to you. and i hate to see my friend got hurt this way. i really wanted to confront her right now, but i cant. i have to wait till a few more weeks. most of the people out there are enjoying their holidays, but it's not the same for me. i feel like screaming. i need someone to be there. i need to strength to carry on. i just.. need you